There are times that I I felt that the more obedient I am to following God, the more adversity there is around my life. A lot of questions entered into my mind and at times, I saw myself losing faith. Things seemed to flow not the way I wanted to see them flow. I wanted to do all my tasks just as perfectly as I am expected to. But my body is not that strong enough to do so. I wanted to help but unable to. Those things and other more that I really would be doing if only I could but only God can. There are prayers that are unanswered until now. I am also taking part in the ministry of God. I do tithe and give gifts. There are many things I am doing and being which I know are in line in the will of God. However, my life still seemed to be not that successful in every aspect. Spiritual life is not that well nourished. Marital relationship is not really that sweetly unique, career is just in average, parenting is not really that ideal. That is just to name some vital parts of my life where I need to work on and out.

God spoke to me on matters of obedience to His will. My thought is so far from His. I may be thinking that I am already obeying Him but I am not, at His sight. I might be following Him in some area but in other things, I do fail to obey. I recall the story of Moses and the Israelites.

Ever since I went to Pharaoh to speak in Your name, he has brought trouble upon this people, and You have not rescued Your people at all. - Exodus 5:23

Moses had been instructed to go to Pharaoh and tell him to release the people of Israel. God said that He would deliver the people through Moses. However, God did not tell Moses at what point they actually would be freed. Then Moses complained to God and the Lord told Moses that He had to harden Pharaoh’s heart in order to perform greater miracles. Yes, God was actually behind hardening Pharaoh’s heart. The king’s heart is in God’s hand. Now I had learned that God had a specific reason for each plague and each delay in the answer of my prayers. God has a reason for everything He does in my life.. in all aspects. Everything was designed to bring greater glory to God and intended to be a lasting legacy of God’s miracle-working power for generations to come, not only for the present one.

Moving on with the story of Moses where the people were freed but God again hardened Pharaoh’s heart to go after them. This action of God to harden Pharaoh’s heart was to set the stage for an even greater miracle — the parting of the Red Sea. The people were angry with Moses for bringing them to the desert “to die.” But God said to Moses, “Why are you crying out to Me? Tell the Israelites to move on” (Ex. 14:15b). There was only one place to go by this time — the Red Sea. God parted the Red Sea, and another greater miracle took place. Awesome God!
Just like Moses, I have learned a number of lessons. When obeying God seems foolish and too hard, then I will just remember that His promises are true, but His timing is not the same as ours. God always wants greater glory than what we might be willing to give Him. God puts obstacles and adversity into our lives in order to build perseverance and faith. I should not worry when God put a mountain in my life. If it is to demonstrate His power through me, then I let God to just move. I let go of anything that brings trouble in my mind and heart in order to show His glory. I will simply obey even when obedience to God seems too hard.